Letter

Jon,

I’m surprised you made it close to engagement. I can’t imagine anyone putting up with how controlling you are. You say your biggest pet peeve is ignorant people but you only don’t like people who don’t listen to you. You don’t have any regrets because you have so much pride and confidence in yourself that you do everything right the first time. Relationships haunt you because you’re afraid of being in love and fear the other person will leave you and you can’t deal with someone having that much control over you.

You’re scared of drowning because you don’t want to experience the feeling of the water engulfing your body and entering your lungs and restricting every bodily function you need to survive because you can’t escape it.

You’re scared of loneliness because then you’ll have no one to listen to your thoughts and incoherent rants. You would rather die slowly because you want the time to reflect on the great life you thought you had. You must be incredibly sad whenever you look at yourself in the mirror seeing less hair on your head and realizing you are slowly being shaved of your youth.

Sincerely,
Jennifer

I haven't seen these droplets for a while. They roll down my face slowly sticking to each cell on their way down. I wipe them off and the salt in them makes the cuts in my fingers sting. Extracting more liquid from my body, drying me out. I'm almost numb from the pain of so much leaving me at once but then I remember; the Summer will end, and so will this heat.